Barbara’s Bulletin #16: No Focus

Today is a weird day. I'm not even sure if I'm having a good day or a bad day. I'm having such a hard time focusing. My mind is bouncing between all of these different things that are going on in my life right now. On top of it all, Lydia hasn't been sleeping very well and I can't remember the last time I had an uninterrupted night of sleep.

This morning I tried to get started on a "work project" that I've been putting off for about a week. I got a solid start but then my computer was just so slow that I had to walk away. Then I went to the sink to wash the dishes.

The minute I sit down to do one thing I just can't help but think of the hundred other things that aren't getting done. I can't get my work done because the house is a mess but I can't clean the house because I'm worried about Lydia's impending dental work. I want to write a blog post about losing our cat, Wesley to cancer but I also just want to shun everything and sit with Lydia.

I want to clear my head and write some posts about all the different things going on (financially, emotionally, covid updates etc.) but for now I think I'm going to step away and attempt to clean the apartment.

Trust me I am trying to have a more positive outlook on everything even if I'm having difficulty showing it.

Thank you for reading!

Babs